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I'm not sure what to say, really... Of the many, I was of the few who knew this was coming, and when... I keep reliving the moments in my head... wondering if I should have let you know I knew... wondering if that would have made it easier for you... but I keep coming back to the realization that it probably would have only made it easier for me... Easier to talk to you I mean...

I will always remember the times we talked... the times we worked and planned... I guess I should have known earlier... that night when we were talking about IC clan stuff, and I was suggesting something about teaching... when you said there wasn't time, I should have known then...

I think you would have been very happy to see what happened... we bought you a tile in the city... and the city came... so many people, from so many clans... it was amazing, yes, I'm sure you would have been happy... People seem to like what was written, some are even interacting with the writing in the square, tossing coins into the well, I think it's wonderful... I decided to pick the name as "Marlena's Wishing Well", because I think you would have liked that... It was so hard for me to think at all, just trying to get things together in my head... Thankfully gargamel managed to start raising money for a tile for you, that releaved so much for me... made me happy... I made a memorial site for you... I guess since this is there, that's fairly obvious... but, I just wanted people to remember... not just another tile... I only wish I knew what you wanted to have here... I try to remember the things you liked best... but... I can't find them... maybe... maybe someday you'll tell me, and I'll know... ...

Leprichaun is still sitting with you... I've not decided yet how long he will stay, or if he will leave again... I miss you Janie... Now as I sit here writing this, I find tears coming to my eyes again... it's been a while now, but the hurt is still fresh... though most of the time I remember, I'm smiling... Remembering times we talked, we laughed... so many good times... ... also... I remember your pain... both physical and mental... I try to remember that, no matter what happens... you're better off... and wherever you are, you're happy...

Rest well Janie-Michele... some day we will meet again... and I'll show you the well...

... Leprichaun / Kain